Time passes too quickly.
I passed a mother who was hugging her toddler the other day. She held him tightly to her and he fitted into her body as only a toddler can. He was pressing his cheek against hers and she had his sweet curly hair in her hands. The embrace was almost desperate… or, as I have come to realize since, my perception of it was desperate. I felt a pang of loss as I watched them in that moment. The feeling surprised me… why wasn’t I thinking how sweet they were? Why did watching them make me feel sad? And then it hit me… I will never again hold my own toddler in my arms like that mother was holding hers… my toddler is 6 now… and 10! My time for holding my toddlers like that will never be again. Did I know at the time how special it was? Did I cherish it and drink it in? Right now I wish with all my heart that I could hug my toddlers like that again… just one more time and really, really, imprint the feeling of it into my mind… their sweet ‘little’ smell, their squishy belly, their soft, silky hair.
But I can’t. That time has gone. The only thing I can do is cherish the stage we are at now. One day, this time will be gone just like that time of toddlerhood is gone.
So, to help me cherish every little moment, I’m going to post a portrait of my children every week. A photo of them doing every-day-little-things that I know I will miss in the years to come. When I’m missing these sweet sunbursts as they are now, I’ll come back and see that I did cherish them. I did drink them in and I did know how special it all was.
Kitty loves Moose so much. She is still amazed at how lucky she is that he chose her (kind of like how I am amazed at how Kitty and Teddy chose us 10 and 6 years ago).
Teddy eats his porridge on the couch in front of the fire every morning… with a little sugar and shaved almonds and some Moose-love (ps – before we got Moose, we wouldn’t have dreamed we’d allow a dog on the couch. But, as I’ve discussed above, everything is precious… even the dog on the couch).
Here’s to these happy, special days.
Blessings and magic,